Withdrawing from Pornography

Well, I made it to another day.  Today was much tougher than yesterday, which only makes sense.  I mean this is when I would normally access the primitive brain and give myself a daily shot of dopamine.  Today was also more challenging because I noticed I look towards females to be the answer.  Whenever I see a pretty girl, I unconsciously look to her to make me feel whole about myself.  This is starting to be a more conscious process.  The funny thing is that I never even see the actual girl, but only the fantasy that plays out in my mind.  One way that I can counter this is to see the person behind the fantasy.   This will move me from seeing gender to just seeing a person.  This is key, but easier said than done.  It is tough the hole I have dug for myself, but one that I dug and thus one that I can get out of.

Who knows what tomorrow brings, but the experience and awareness I have gained today are invaluable.