Withdrawing from Pornography

Wow……this is intense.  I am so fidgety and restless.  I want to go run, but I don’t know if my body can take the punishment.  I feel especially charged up and want a way to channel that somewhere, but not the convenient escape.

At least now I know I am getting my money’s worth out of this withdrawal.  I am definitely being challenged and am semi-grateful for this.  If it were easy then I wouldn’t be doing this and you wouldn’t be reading this.

Breathing is a nice escape because it is always here and now.  A friend of mine asked me what I think is the best way to stay in the present tense.  My reply was quite simple, breathe.  It doesn’t take much more than this, but it does take a lot of perseverance.  My brain’s initial thoughts are I don’t want to feel this and damnit get me outta here!!! Although I know that this is the best thing to be going through.

Gotta keep on keeping on with this.  I don’t want to do this again….EVER!!!