Withdrawing from Pornography

The start of another day and a new set of experiences and challenges.  I noticed last night that the evening was especially challenging.  I wanted to daze off and get away from the numbness.  I almost feel like I am going through a tunnel.  Although I am trying to keep myself busy and turning to activities that are more introspective and peaceful.  Some of these are reading and just being wherever I may find myself.  I have also been running quite a bit.  I like to run in the morning because it is a great way to start the day.  The endorphins are a little bit of a substitute, although more positive.

This is a big challenge, but I know that it will be worthwhile.  The key for me is to stay conscious as much as possible.  Granted there will be times when I am not totally here, but the awareness of these will always bring me back.  I know this is a process and I am not expecting instant results.  This will take time, but I know this will be the best so the changes are more lasting.

Anyways, I am in high spirits and can see this really going somewhere.  Where it goes, I don’t know, but I am willing to give it a chance.

Ciao…..